the things don’t go the way i want them to and this is so upset and the life i have right now is so so sad and meaningless. it’s just every day is the same.
and i don’t get excited and inspired and i don’t feel anything but the void in my chest. that pain of don’t having freedom of being who i am. because i don’t know who i am and what i want. i just know that it isn’t for me. it hurts so much i want to cry every day; and i do cry but every night when i come home from work. when i see no one there, when there is nobody for me.
just emptiness
in and outside me
it hurts.